Even on the night of the 12 th November just 15 to 16 hours before her finally leaving when I saw her I remember

Though her lips were dry almost parched
Her face was pale
But there was a hallow around it , peace and her inner strength shined through the paleness
Dignity !
Whenever I called out her name she opened her eyes
There was such grace even then in her eye movements her glances
Even when she Shook her head in acknowledgement upon my asking her whether she is really listening , there was so much grace

She didn't cry
She wasn't afraid
She wasn't clinging to anything

Her face was calm and in complete equanimity even when rishiji ( the most respected and loved person in her life after sri sri ji ) met her on the 12 th night
She did not seek or ask for a last minute boon
She did not beg
She had no fear

In fact I remember her telling rishiji on the 10 th or the 15 th of October just a month before her Leaving " this time I don't want you to take panga with guruji "

At that time I did not understand this

Now it's all clear